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does it have to be hard work
i feel blocked - like executive dysfunction. like im missing a strength. like im 30% less than i should be.
i want to get better in the end but i feel blocked
i have cptsd & adhd traits, and ive been doign commissions for a while but i've always struggled with doing them on time. i've been a really bad commission artist in this regard. i've even been really late doing commissions for irl friends.
it's hyper focusing getting the commission, doing some work in the beginning, procrastinating it because "it's easy, i can do it later" (and i think an underlying anxiety about completing a task out of willingness and without stress??), then doing it when i'm reminded of how behind i am and poorly i'm doing, then profusely apologizing for being late but here's your commission and as an apology i'll throw in some extra work!!!
i'm realizing this is part of why i'm not getting repeat customers.
i don't need any more shaming, i need advice! any advice on working consistently on projects, procrastination, etc.
thank you!