u/KeyCast

One of my themes with OCD and GAD is death, I have missed so many opportunities in my life just by being afraid that something bad will happen, is been mostly about if something bad happens to my love ones, but also if something happen to me, dying, being hurt, etc, IDK what changed, I'm still very afraid of something happening to my love ones, but it changed about me, about my well-being, and I think maybe I'm depressed it's not that I want something to happen to me is that I don't care anymore if it happens to me, I'm so sad about the world we live in. I mostly have Pure O, so many of my compulsions are not physical, but one of my themes (after the pandemic) is with pathogens and things like that. Even though I'm not afraid for myself, I still am afraid for the people around me, so in that sense, I keep some of the rituals about that. Sorry for the rant needed to vent