u/KeyAvocado5982

I've lived life for the past few years for no reason other than to not make my family grieve and pay my debts and funeral cost. I'm miserable and would prefer to just drop dead but I'm too much of a coward to do anything. I don't know if I'm on the spectrum or something but I've always struggled with simple things. Social interaction has always been a big one, always panicking inside instead of hearing whatever is being said to me. Could never find the motivation or interest for hobbies either. Keeping even a simple grocery store job is taking all I have, I'm barely scraping by and I feel so distant. I don't know what to do anymore, I've been just moving forward for so long that I'm entirely burnt out and want it all to end. I have family I could talk to but I don't really know how, I mean how do you tell your family the only reason you're still alive is so they dont have to grieve? I don't know what to do anymore