Hello all, just wanted to share my story a little.
We met online last June, so almost a year ago. We met online, and what's wild is I wasn't even trying to find anyone. I'd basically given up on finding my person, and very shortly after, I believe I met him.
My outlook and feelings on life have changed since I met him. For years it was like I was sleep walking, and he woke me back up. He's patient, kind, understanding, and thoughtful. He's always been there for me when I needed him, and vice versa.
We text everyday, and have had many calls getting to know each other better and spend time together, and been intimate as much as we can despite the distance (thank you modern technology). He's become one of my best friends, if not the very best. I truly feel like I can be myself with him, and he feels like home (and he says the same about me).
We're making plans to move in together (he's coming to me). I know it seems crazy to do that without having been able to meet in person first, but given the circumstances, I think we get a pass. I'd been struggling financially and only just getting back on my feet, and he's unfortunately between jobs, but not for lack of trying. It's this damn job market making things difficult for him. He lives in one of the major cities, and while I may live in a podunk town, it's growing and expanding, so he'll have better job opportunities here. And I'm currently in the process of getting a new job myself, one with much better pay, and with benefits that I hope he'll get to take advantage of, too.
Again, I know it's a little crazy to move in before actually meeting up first. We did have plans to do a meet up first, but because of everything going on in the world, everything has gone up in prices and it's just not feasible. We're also scared something might happen to keep us apart for even longer, and we know we'd be stronger together. So, we're going to move in. One of the biggest reasons for that is we both have less than ideal living situations, and neither of us can fully heal from the pains of our respective pasts as long as we're in our current situations. We know there will be challenges in the beginning, and we've discussed how we'll address/approach those challenges as they come. As long as we continue to be open and honest with each other, we can overcome those challenges.
I'm not one to wear my heart on my sleeve, and it did take me a bit to warm up to the actual idea of love. But now looking back on it, I believe I've loved him longer than I've realized, I was just too afraid to admit it to myself. I'm so excited to start a life with him, and to actually start living again. I love him so much, and I can't wait until we can get him out here.