I actually prefer being seen more as a male than female. I bind my chest, draw a moustache on my face using brown mascara, try to have a masculine stance and dream of starting T. I like when masculine terms are being used for me such as dude, bro, he etc. but honestly that's what i also say to anyone regardless of gender (unless the person has stated otherwise).
I experience dysphoria and don't like the way i currently look but I still also feel like lacking gender. I don't ever feel fully male and don't see myself as a trans man but could i still use the label trans as I feel like I'm trying to transitiono something that is actually nothing as a gender?
I've always known I am not cis and I don't want to be seen as the gender i was assigned. I don't really care if others see me as trans or not. I am not doing this for others. All I want is want to be seen as something else than female.
All these thoughts came to mind as i was looking for a flag for pride and found myself staring st the transgender flag and wondering if i should buy it. But I also want to know how other people feel like as presenting themselves. I know there are agender people who don't refer to themselves as trans and would love to hear more from them but also it would be great to hear from those who refer as something else too while also identifying as agender.