Hard life
I lost my car today. I have lost everything that was in it. I have been numbing the pain by reaching the high to make reality disappear. I haven’t been the same since you walked away from me. Yes I do blame you for all of it because you couldn’t just love me there was always someone else behind my back. I don’t care anymore. I realized that you didn’t love me and that is what sent me down this path of losing myself and now walking the path that I never thought I’d walk. To know that i am one of those that I said I never would be. To now being stuck somewhere I don’t want to be. I’m happy that you get to live a normal life as I am struggling to live day to day. Take meds which I haven’t had in a week or two. I’m dying and who cares right now one. I was pulled to this state to save something that was never being saved. Given no options but to be hurt over and over again. Thanks for everything all the damage all the lies all the hurt and pain and now having nothing no family no friends no one and it’s lonely and hard and cruel in this world I’m living in. I deserve so much more but I was left like garbage. I hate you more than anything in this world. Thanks for making me into someone I hate and pretty soon one day I won’t be here it will be the end of the road for me.