So here's the thing, I can't force myself to do works, studying, and sometimes even things that I enjoy. It doesn't matter how hard I try to quit it eventually comes back.
Whenever I do works or studying, I always get distracted, or turns to do other things like Youtube, Gaming, etc...
It used to be not as bad, it only starts to get worse after I have long suicidal episodes since October, but it had ended now I think. It also made an impact it's that I start to care about others and being more kind, but the downside is I care for others so much I forgot about my own life.
And no, I can't put devices away because I'll become irritated to do anything, or I just find other things to do, weirdly enough I can only do works if someone is watching yet I'll become too irritated and stressed to continue to.
Sorry if my writing is bad, I'm kinda in a rush to write this, there's some info missing too so don't be shy to ask anything