u/Kauoom

Hello. I recently realized that the things I treat myself with are actually destructive. If I feel bad, achieve something, celebrate something, etc. I tend to eat junk food, play more video games, buy myself stuff, etc.

So I basically celebrate accomplishments or take care of myself by destroying my mind, body, and finances. Now the situation is not irredeemable but I went from a normal BMI to the brink of being overweight, I suffered from video game addiction in the past (trying to escape depression) and play more in recent months, and while I'm still ok financially I also waste hundreds of Euros of things I hope fill the void just to barely use them. I recently had a tough few months finishing my degree and rewarded myself during this time and upon receiving my degree with these behaviors for a longer amount of time (than usual).

Just as a preamble: I'm in therapy, I take medication. So that is taken care of. But I wanted to know how other people struggling with / working on self-love handle this "destructive self-love", if it even is self-love at all. Thank you for taking the time to read this post.