Improving with a disability?
I have a slight disability in one leg (a proximal tibial replacement, think knee replacement but its half the bone in my leg), and im struggling to improve my randori safely.
For context, I started training judo when I was 5, and had the replacement done when I was 12. I kept training once I relearnt how to walk, and have been doing judo on the replacement for about 8 years now.
I spent most of that time training very lightly, focusing mostly on technical work, however recently I've got way more interested in improving my randori (partly thanks to going to uni and joining a club that's much more competition-focused).
The issue that I'm finding is that I am struggling to find ways to safely test my limits / go hard. I find that even after all these years I still instinctually go for throws that risk injuring my leg, or going for things that could result in injury if they're countered. My solution to this has been to slow myself down and think before I do anything, but then of course by the time I've figured out what to do, it's too late to actually do it. Working on my combinations and having things ready to go in advance had helped a bit, but in the scramble of randori I often find it hard to actually execute stuff.
I know myself and my leg well enough to have a rough idea of where my ceiling could be, im not pretending its aa high as most people's, theres a lot I just can't do, especially in terms of combinations and counters, but I also know that I'm not at my ceiling yet.
I don't know how to improve, however, without risking injury, because learning through sheer repetitive experience just won't work when one wrong move could break my leg.
Any ideas reddit?