I was trying to get to sleep just there, my brain was in a half dream state, I remember I had this mini dream, the dream was basically like a really good feeling, like a really good feeling, but then I got this intrusive thought basically saying “you’re experiencing this feeling now because you’ll never feel this good again”
For a summary, I suffer from really overwhelming anxiety and ocd about the future. This is rare to hear from people, but I am actually one of the few people who really appreciate and enjoy life, I like the way things are. But I have terrible anxiety, I worry every day that something is going to happen that takes these things away from me
This good feeling dream I just had was basically a short suped up summary of my ideal life, then my brain said “you’re experiencing this really good feeling right now because you are going to lose the things you love”
My ocd is called magical thinking, so I’m worried that what if this wasn’t an intrusive thought and some sort of warning, because it didn’t feel like a typical intrusive thought, usually intrusive thoughts feel like they came from your brain, but since this wasn’t a dream it felt more random and shocking, need to hear someone else’s thoughts