Feeling too heavy
I am feeling heavy, very anxious due to all the things that happened in my life.
For the last 2 years, I have not studied properly. I was into movies, dramas, anime, games, and got distracted a lot
It has started making me feel far behind. My classmates got internships (MSIL,Deloitte.) while I secured nothing
I appeared for interviews, got selected in some rounds, but when all others got through, I didn’t. It hit me hard that day
Feeling heavy in my heart daily when I wake up. Hiding from everyone. Not able to build up to my own expectations or my parents’
Still playing Rocket League a lot like it’s the only thing that gives me relief, but won't make me placed
My confidence is so low that I don’t even think I can get into TCS (which is considered one of the lowest ones by many in college)
Used to do so much DSA, participated in contests, but that self-confidence has gone below the belt
Don’t have any stability. I panic and freeze whenever I have to take sudden decisions, even in games
The most dangerous part of it is I still feel that doing nothing will get me job...
Like i feel this way most of the time