u/KSI_is_5foot11inches

I genuinely can’t tell if I’m neurodivergent or if my brain just developed in a weird way over time.
A few things about me that make me question it:
My mind is extremely fast and non-linear. I constantly jump between ideas, patterns, systems, philosophies, future plans etc. One thought becomes 10 tabs in my brain instantly.
I can hyperfocus HARD on things I’m interested in for hours, especially if it feels meaningful or mentally stimulating, but struggle massively with boring/basic tasks even when they’re important.
I procrastinate in a very specific way: not because I “don’t care”, but because my brain feels overloaded/friction-filled even when I WANT to do the thing.
Sometimes I feel mentally “too aware” socially. Like I overanalyse tone, behaviour, group dynamics, hidden meanings, how people perceive me etc.
I get periods where I feel insanely motivated, visionary and productive, then suddenly crash into dopamine loops, scrolling, avoidance, chaos, lack of structure.
I often feel like my brain works through connections and intuition more than linear step-by-step thinking.
I hate wasting potential and constantly feel like there’s a “higher version” of me I’m trying to align with.
Routine helps me a lot, but I also resist routine because part of my brain craves novelty constantly.
Sometimes normal life stuff feels weirdly exhausting mentally, even simple things.
My thoughts are so loud/active that I sometimes struggle to fully relax unless I’m deeply engaged in something.
But at the same time:
I did well academically.
I can socialize pretty well.
I understand people/emotions quite deeply.
I’m not sure if this is ADHD/autism/something else or just personality + internet overstimulation + dopamine issues.

I genuinely can’t tell if I’m neurodivergent or if my brain just developed in a weird way over time.
A few things about me that make me question it:
My mind is extremely fast and non-linear. I constantly jump between ideas, patterns, systems, philosophies, future plans etc. One thought becomes 10 tabs in my brain instantly.
I can hyperfocus HARD on things I’m interested in for hours, especially if it feels meaningful or mentally stimulating, but struggle massively with boring/basic tasks even when they’re important.
I procrastinate in a very specific way: not because I “don’t care”, but because my brain feels overloaded/friction-filled even when I WANT to do the thing.
Sometimes I feel mentally “too aware” socially. Like I overanalyse tone, behaviour, group dynamics, hidden meanings, how people perceive me etc.
I get periods where I feel insanely motivated, visionary and productive, then suddenly crash into dopamine loops, scrolling, avoidance, chaos, lack of structure.
I often feel like my brain works through connections and intuition more than linear step-by-step thinking.
I hate wasting potential and constantly feel like there’s a “higher version” of me I’m trying to align with.
Routine helps me a lot, but I also resist routine because part of my brain craves novelty constantly.
Sometimes normal life stuff feels weirdly exhausting mentally, even simple things.
My thoughts are so loud/active that I sometimes struggle to fully relax unless I’m deeply engaged in something.
But at the same time:
I did well academically.
I can socialize pretty well.
I understand people/emotions quite deeply.
I’m not sure if this is ADHD/autism/something else or just personality + internet overstimulation + dopamine issues.

Consciousness can be understood as a scalable state of awareness rather than a simple on/off property. Intelligence and consciousness are linked because higher intelligence increases the brain’s ability to recursively process information, observe itself, form abstract models, and intentionally shape behaviour. Humans differ from other animals not because only humans are conscious, but because human cognition allows a much deeper and more complex level of self-awareness.

Most people operate in a limited automatic state shaped by habit, stimulation, emotion, and social conditioning. However, certain states such as deep introspection, meditation, philosophical discussion, psychedelics, or sensory isolation can temporarily increase conscious awareness by weakening automatic identity structures and increasing reflective thought. In these states, individuals may gain greater control over perception, behaviour, and identity formation.

The theory also proposes that consciousness may not be fully created by the brain itself, but instead could represent a deeper underlying field or substrate that complex systems interact with. In this model, the brain functions more like an interface or receiver for consciousness rather than its sole source.

The practical implication is that higher consciousness allows individuals to intentionally engineer themselves through increased self-awareness, logical reflection, and alignment between thought, identity, and action.