u/KLC_W

I feel weird about posting this. I don't usually speak this vulnerably and candidly but I'm kind of desperate. I've been going through a lot recently and I need some ENFP energy in my life.

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Background that you can skip if you don't want to read it: My husband recently abandoned me with our 1 year old. I've tried like an idiot to get him back but of course he doesn't want that. Ever since our son was born (not his fault at all), I keep hitting rock bottom, climbing back up, walking off a differently cliff, and hitting rock bottom again even harder. Now more than ever, I'm realizing that I'm surrounded by people (mostly S's) who have nothing but judgment to give.

I've sought therapy but my therapist lectured me for more than 20 minutes about how I'm living immorally by being vegan because God gave us animals so I'm being rude by not eating his "gift." And that was his own tangent. I didn't ask about my diet and it's not up for negotiation. I'm also not Christian so I don't care what the Bible says about it. Seriously, every single time I start feeling hope or reaching out, someone just punches me back down.

I've been fantasizing about running away and living in the woods with my son, but there's no tofu in the woods. I stayed in a tiny home with him for a few days recently and it was glorious. We picnicked in the sunshine every day. Just perfection.

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I keep thinking about the ENFPs I've known in my life and how good their energy felt, but I haven't connected with one as an adult for some reason. So I have a few questions: I'm 36F, so if you're 30 or older in particular, can you tell me how to find you in the wild? I go out and about pretty much every day and I meet a lot of people but I never seem to find you. Or could you tell me something you would tell a friend going through a rough time? I could use it! Also, I'm feeling completely unloveable today so for the ego boost, could you tell me what you love about INFJs?