u/KDJ_5149 — reddlx

I am 18 y.o eldest daughter of my family. I am in my last year of high school. Lately, I have been very stressed cause of YEESH. I go to three separate lesson centers for my subject, so I mostly spend my days in bus, commuting. Today is Friday and I was watching some horror game stream to unwind. But my mom said “is that even useful for your future?” I said “oh, today is my rest day, so I am watching this to let go of my stress”. She stayed quiet for a bit while, until I talked about doing my marathon volunteer. I really loved it and felt happy to cheer on runners and give waters. So I was planning on doing it again this year, but when she heard that she said “You don’t have time for that! That’s so fucking useless. You should study more!” I was Kona upset and hurt so I said “I do this cause I feel happy and it helps me unwind sooo much!” She scowled and yelled at me, “stress? You have been talking about stress all day long. What kind of stress would you even have!? Even I am not stressed so why would you be stressed? You don’t have anything to be stressed for.” I was so speechless and just scoffed. She yelled at my face for hours.

Whenever I watch my phone I am told to study, but when I am doing my homework fr, I am accused of watching my phone secretly, so apparently I don’t even study nor one bit. It’s funny, I am studying until my hair is falling out. What is she even looking for?
If I get stye, cramps anything hurt, it’s all me and my phone’s fault.
I found out I focus so well in the evening, so I started studying at that time in MY room. But she would come in and turn off my lights and tell me to sleep. And I am supposed to study in the morning or something. And when i told her i focus better at evening, she even laughed at me and said “there is no such thing!”
I am so tired, I am doing everything I can! I am memorizing, I am solving problems! I am studying! I can’t even play my video games cause I am anxious. I have even been crying in my bed for 5 days straight now. I feel so drained. What am I supposed to do!?

I am 18 y.o eldest daughter of my family in Asian household. I am in my last year of high school. Lately, I have been very stressed cause of my university entrance exam. I go to three separate lesson centers for my subject, so I mostly spend my days in bus, commuting. Today is Friday and I was watching some horror game stream to unwind. But my mom said “is that even useful for your future?” I said “oh, today is my rest day, so I am watching this to let go of my stress”. She stayed quiet for a bit while, until I talked about doing my marathon volunteer. I really loved it and felt happy to cheer on runners and give waters. So I was planning on doing it again this year, but when she heard that she said “You don’t have time for that! That’s so fucking useless. You should study more!” I was Kona upset and hurt so I said “I do this cause I feel happy and it helps me unwind sooo much!” She scowled and yelled at me, “stress? You have been talking about stress all day long. What kind of stress would you even have!? Even I am not stressed so why would you be stressed? You don’t have anything to be stressed for.” I was so speechless and just scoffed. She yelled at my face for hours.

Whenever I watch my phone I am told to study, but when I am doing my homework fr, I am accused of watching my phone secretly, so apparently I don’t even study nor one bit. It’s funny, I am studying until my hair is falling out. What is she even looking for?
If I get stye, cramps anything hurt, it’s all me and my phone’s fault.
I found out I focus so well in the evening, so I started studying at that time in MY room. But she would come in and turn off my lights and tell me to sleep. And I am supposed to study in the morning or something. And when i told her i focus better at evening, she even laughed at me and said “there is no such thing!”
I am so tired, I am doing everything I can! I am memorizing, I am solving problems! I am studying! I can’t even play my video games cause I am anxious. I have even been crying in my bed for 5 days straight now. I feel so drained. What am I supposed to do!?