So I've had the uncomfortable realisation that I'm submissive yesterday and now my entire life looks different to me. Especially my friendships. I think I've unconsciously accepted two (taken) friends as dommes. They tend to speak with certainty and I feel very safe with them. The problem is that they are sometimes unhappy with my lack of assertiveness as they tend to fight each other on a lot of points and I think they expect me to do the same. I just can't. I thought I was conflict avoiding but now I realise that that didn't even scratch the surface of what's actually going on.
I'm a sexually very repressed person. There is this deep shame that I might have used them and chosen them for my own pleasure to some degree. I would never intentionally do that and I'm genuinely horrified.
So my question is how do submissive people handle more dominant friends without gaining satisfaction from their presence?