The college semester is ending soon and it’s likely I won’t be home for the summer. Being a graduate assistant is rough sometimes along with likely being undiagnosed
On one hand I can do whatever I want and relax like what my mom and several members of my family plus friends told me to do but on the other hand I want to improve myself and get better. Fix some things about myself and clear things within my backlog
I hate sitting on my butt doing nothing but sometimes I’m prone to procrastination. It pisses me off when I do something and I realize how fast it took me as I could’ve done it days, weeks,months or years ago
All my life I’ve been on autopilot walking down a grey hallway. I feel numb to all my milestones as I feel like these things that I’m supposed to do and deserves no fanfare
Thankfully I’m not a doomer or prone to destructive habits but the call is getting louder some days.