New to this sub, post-mediation and just waiting on final decree at the moment. After everything that's happened I (32F) have zero intentions of dating ever again, but I noticed almost zero sex drive towards the end of our marriage when things were getting so, so bad and downright abusive after being together for 12 years, married for 8.
Even with things calming down and having my own space, I'm wondering of any other women came out the other side of it thinking, "I don't want any man to touch me ever again?" Does it ever get better? I don't even care about "finding someone new" or whatever but the feeling is hard to describe. I've never experienced absolute zero libido for months on end before. I've got medical issues being managed but my labs are better than they've been in years, so even with increased dose of TRT I feel pretty good besides that.
I'm just so upset about it all. It's like an emptiness from what he took from me.