u/Just_Concentrate_952

How can i become a better girlfriend. My boyfriend is the sweetest gentlest person i know and yet i feel like im a complete bitch too him. i love him more than anything but i dont think i truly show him that i do and i always start petty arguments even when i dont mean too. We are both him highschool so it’s learning for both of us but i dont feel like im good too him and i want to change before its too late. I literally can’t communicate my feelings which makes things worse and ive tried changing i just cant. I don’t want too lose him but i feel like i will soon. I can see the look in his eyes when i hurt and it breaks a part of me but i feel like when i get in a “mood” i cant snap out of it no matter how hard i try and i act just like my father. i love this boy with my whole heart and i dont want to break up but if i can’t change my actions im considering it because i cant hurt him he doesnt deserve it. I need advice because i can’t lose him but i also cant hurt my sweet boy. I think i have undiagnosed BPD and ADHD which is never an excuse but i just want help but i cant get it currently and i dont want that to effect our relationship more than it has.