How do you deal with being single in your 20s
I genuinely what to do anymore with all these feelings inside me. I am a girl 22yo, currently in the university. I have never been in a relationship, partially because I grew up in a small city with a tiny dating pool and partially because I was more to the overweight side so didn’t get attention from the guys almost at all. Now I moved to a new country, go to the gym , run, have hobbies, study medicine and a new language and I still don’t get attention while everyone around me is in the relationship.
I was talking to one guy online , it wasn’t a dating app and he didn’t want a relationship either. We kept talking casually, and now I feel like we have created this intimate bond and he has become someone important for me (we never met because we are from different countries). He gives me this warmth, care and actual relationship-level attachment. I have had a couple of conversations about him and he told me that this is more than just casual, that he feels bad when he doesn’t talk to me. Meanwhile he also sees another girl irl, like friends with benefits, but every time he mentions her I feel like what we have isn’t special and meaningful for him. I don’t wanna stop contact with him because he gives me this care that I have been missing my whole life and he is already a part of my daily routine.
I just hate how lonely I am while being not bad looking or not someone stupid or with horrible personality. And I don’t know how to cope with this. I so much understand that I should probably stop the contact with him but at the same time , I will feel so empty. Even when I go out for a walk, I see couples all around me and still I here, bored of life and with fake hopes.