u/Jolly-Purple845

tw for drugs. M19. my parents are (or at least used to be as of recent) trump supporters and mega christians. they’ve always been christian but they (especially my mom) are acting like born again christians. in january and february i was using cocaine and ketamine heavy and in march i got sober after becoming addicted. i told my mom sometime in march and she wasn’t mad she was very supportive and understood… here comes last night. last night me and my cousin (F18) were drinking and she told me my mom called her mom about the situation soon after. she said that my mom was crying and saying she said she doesn’t know what to do because i “sinned” and my step dad is in the background screaming “HE SINNED HES A SINNER!” my cousin told me her mom was defending me and pointing out how my mom did drugs at my age too. my cousin told me her and my aunt said they both feel bad i have to live with them. i’m moving onto the apartments on my college campus, it’s already official, so soon i won’t have to hear my parents go into religious psychosis all the time. for another example on how my parents are religiously, they were really on the fence about me being bisexual but finally accepted. at the time my mom told me not to hold hands with my bf bc it made my step dad uncomfortable but he’s apologized. just crazy shit, needed to get this out there. they’re other good parents imo but i worry about their unhealthy relationship with religion.

(19M bipolar) everyday i’m looking at myself constantly. looking in the mirror for a long time every time i use the bathroom and always looking on my phone camera when im in public to make sure i look like how i want to. when im alone im look at pics and vids of me for a long time and just admire. i love talking about myself. in most conversations ill find a way to make it about me. this is just a vent i needed to get that shit out there.

you made your bed, now lie in it.

M19. since 15 i’ve been smoking but now im at the point where im using it more than ever. i had a while in march when i wanted to slow down but for the past month or so ive been hitting it everyday. sometimes i think its bad and that im just an addict but other times i feel like it’s actually my medicine, just like my antipsychotics. the ways it helps me is: more focused, less anxious, and im way nicer to people and actually converse. past 2 weeks ive been hitting it nonstop all day i definitely wanna quit that but i dont wanna quit my daily smoking. earlier in the year i was a cocaine and ketamine addict so i see this as way better.