u/Jazzlike-Spare505

I am struggling mental. Not the normal struggling where its just being depressed and low motivation. I am struggling to get out of bed, take showers, im having panic attacks. I have missed 400 hrs of work in the last year due to my disabilities. When I am at work I am visualizing how to kill myself, when, and where. I just got out of inpatient psych (voluntarily). Now due to the missed time, I'm going to be homeless again. My apartment has a 3 day pay or quit. Means unless I pay rent on time I have three days to leave. On top of all of this my amazing wife is pregnant with my first child.

What should I do? Just looking for general advice.

I am struggling mental. Not the normal struggling where its just being depressed and low motivation. I am struggling to get out of bed, take showers, im having panic attacks. I have missed 400 hrs of work in the last year due to my disabilities. When I am at work I am visualizing how to kill myself, when, and where. I just got out of inpatient psych (voluntarily). Now due to the missed time, I'm going to be homeless again. My apartment has a 3 day pay or quit. Means unless I pay rent on time I have three days to leave. On top of all of this my amazing wife is pregnant with my first child.

What should I do? Just looking for general advice.

Hello, I am using a throw away account because I dont want people to know my actual account. I am conflicted if I should request a increase or just stay at my current rating. Currently 80% for major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, Chronic SI, and it gos on. I just got out of a inpatient psych unit for SI. Its pretty bad with my depression. I am missing for or having no motivation when I have to leave my job early because my thoughts are so bad. I have lost 12-15 jobs in the last 5 years due to depression but also I have chronic Stomach issues also service connected. I tend to vomit blood when I have my flair ups.

Any opinions would be helpful. Thank you!