u/Jazzlike-Scientist86

I am writing to hear your stories, thoughts, and to vent. I am in a late 30ies, many years together with my amazing partner. I never wanted kids, it was clear to both of us. I never wanted them because I never had this maternal imperative- I never played with dolls, never enjoyed babysitting (I was scared by babies and kids!), or was cool around friends kids. I never had this desire to be everything to a little human. Just not! And of course politics, economy and climate did not add to it. But as my biological clock is ticking, and I an starting experience perimenopause, I feel huge internal pressure. I was raised in society where kids were everything. I was hoping to wake up one day and feel this maternal instinct. But it doesn’t happen, and the time is veeeeery running out. And sometimes I see sweet moments with kids around and think „it could be nice“. But I cannot distinguish anymore if it is a real feeling or fear of missing out. I afraid to make a biggest mistake of my life. Therefore, I would like to hear the stories from both sides;) Cheers!