Binge eating as a guy in fitness
I am 16 and super addicted to binging for a while now I used to be kinda chubby in 9th grade but then I got kicked out of school went online had the “great lock in” and got shredded but after that I can’t stop binging I’m now in 10th grade going into 11th soon and I look good I know I look good I get told all the time but the thing is I’m not satisfied bc what ppl see is me in my highlighted moments of life otherwise I hide myself away from everyone bc I binge every 2 -5 days and nothing helps I went to a psychiatrist and got prescribed Vyvanse and got put on 40 mg and it still doesn’t help me. I can’t control my hunger levels. I feel like I’m lost in an epitome of doom and it’s weird because I just recently quit Nic and I keep relapsing to, but this time it’s permanently gone out of my life because I ended up replacing all those problems, a.k.a. my friends because I realize my brain correlates friends with bad decisions like nic and I’ve been struggling with it for a really long time. I’ve tried everything. I’ve tried talking to people. I’ve genuinely tried everything. People don’t understand on how much of a level I’ve tried everything and it makes it worse. Piece of affects my training, I lift and run and I’ve been lifting for years now and running for about a year. I’m really good at running and I don’t under fuel, but I just can’t get control over the binging and I feel like no matter how many different people are even suffering with binging I talk to will never understand how bad it is for me for some odd reason. It just feels like a whole Nother level for me compared to everyone else. None of them understand the struggles that go through because when I mentioned like little small niche details they will be like oh I don’t experience that. I don’t know what can possibly even help anymore. I’m honestly on the verge of giving up a done dopamine detox. I’ve tried literally everything intrusively eating, not diet bulking just anything and no matter what I keep ending up, getting triggered and being in a binge state it’s super embarrassing talking about it online and never thought I would get down to this point in my life that would ever go about a problem online, but I’m desperate and I’m honestly giving up I want help I want to suggestions. I’ve tried therapy and everything. I wanna hear son that experiences similar problems they can meet and can suggest ways to fix it.