u/Jaywizzah

Ill try to keep this short as I can. Im 32 yes old and married with one child, a 4 year old. My wife and I have been together just o er 5 years and married 9 months. I feel like I married her out of fear and obligation to be there for my child. Over the years before getting married I tried to leave the relationship multiple times due to me just wanting to be to myself. Sadly after breaking up, I didnt hold my ground. We were living together and my wife(girlfriend at the time) didnt have any family where we lived. So I basically felt bad about it. I knew I wanted out but really felt like I was failing my child by leaving her mom. Yes we ended up moving closer to her family and getting married. Fast forward to today, I care about her but I do not like what the marriage is. Im realizing I just delayed the inevitable. I actually had a chance to leave back in 2022 but it was very uncomfortable for me and she made it even harder by withholding my child from me and filing for child support. There's still resentment there from that year. She kicked me out of our apartment that I had no idea I wasn't on the renewed lease. I moved back in and paid for all of our living expenses due to her refusing to go back to work a year after we had our child. Sorry for the rant but as of today im trying to prepare myself mentally and financially enough to separate so I can have my life back and continue to be a present father. BTW she doesnt seem to have any idea that I feel this way and I feel bad enough about that.