Been trying to quit for a few years but always experience mania/psychosis
Ive been smoking weed since I was about 16 and im now 29, its always been off and on but since i was about 23 ive been a heavy smoker and have only stopped for a few months before starting again. I do deal with a lot of mental health issues mainly BPD but I have severe anxiety and depression as well. Lately ive been thinking that smoking weed has been exacerbating my symptoms and honestly has been making me depersonalize. When ive tried to quit in recent years after 1 day of stopping I go into a manic state, I have horrible vivid dreams, sweats, my mind races nonstop, I cant stop talking and im usually not someone who talks a lot and I have a much shorter fuse and tend to anger very quickly over small things. Is this normal and will it stop? Should I seek outside help like going to NA meetings or bring this up to my doctor? Quitting by myself seems like an impossible task but I need to do it for my mental health.