u/JayBlueBlue

For a while it’s been hard for me to like the way i look, and it’s something I’ve struggled with for years, even after i “recovered”. But I’ve noticed that i still struggle with self image and eating, so because of that I’m trying to like how i am currently. Even though it’s hard to accept who i am or how i look i don’t want to ever go back to how i was, and i think that’s good motivation to start. Recovery is different for everyone and no matter how long it takes i hope that one day ill be able like the way I am.

I hope anyone else who is struggling with accepting themselves are able to see past the fear and negativity and learn to love themselves and appreciate the people who made it possible :)

Ive seen a few other people online mention this but lately I’ve been reminiscing about my past recovery (I developed anorexia at 14, I’m 19 now). After I semi recovered from anorexia, I started to binge like crazy, and I have not stopped.

I don’t necessarily have huge binges but I don’t have a conscious feeling of when I’m supposed to eat and when i’m not supposed to eat. I eat whenever, even when i’m not hungry or when i’m full. Or I eat until I can’t stomach it. And This isn’t normal because I know that other people can tell themselves they need to stop eating so that they don’t overeat, but I can’t tell myself that so I just eat until I feel sick.

It makes me so upset whenever people ignore this because this isn’t recovery, and just because I’m not starving myself doesn’t mean that I’m still sick, but no one will think that unless you starve or purge.

I just wish people were more aware of the transition from anorexia to bed, because they are both detrimental to a person’s health.

But I’m slowly trying to listen to my bodies hunger cues because I normally eat too much to get them lol, but slowly but surely ill one day get back to normal eating habits:)