u/Jason1I

This is my(M22)🇮🇳first time here posting,I met her (F21)🇮🇳in a game back in 2023. We became friends after about a week of talking, and she gave me her number. After that, we started texting daily. Slowly, I got really attached to her. We started watching movies together on Discord, and things were going well.

We did have fights sometimes, and I admit I was usually the one who started them over small things but I truly loved her.

After about a year, in 2024, she told me about her best friend (a girl) and she(my gf) said she didn’t want to marry any guy and instead wanted to adopt kids with her. I should’ve probably walked away at that point, but I didn’t. I thought I could make things work.

Later, I met her friend while gaming with her. Her friend saw a picture of me and said I didn’t look good and was very disrespectful toward me. She even pushed my girlfriend to break up with me, but my girlfriend always defended me and said I was a good person.

Over time, I started getting very anxious. If she didn’t reply for even a short time, I would feel heavy and overthink everything. Because of her strict parents, she couldn’t call me much, which made things harder for me emotionally.

In 2025, things got worse. I was feeling really lonely and couldn’t control my emotions anymore. I told her I didn’t think our relationship would go far and said I would leave. She then agreed that we could only talk through messages, and she would call me instead of me speaking. Things calmed down for a bit.

I don’t really have many friends, while she was often busy with games and her friends. I tried to accept it. Later, she mentioned her bisexual friend(who doesn't like me) and said that she liked a girl from her class. I got scared that I might lose her(my gf), but she reassured me that she only loved me.

At one point, she promised me she would only marry me and everything felt okay again.

Then on my birthday, I found out she was using an alt account and playing games secretly at night and friending strangers . I noticed this through a game email linked to an account. When I asked her, she said it was her cousin’s account. I didn’t argue much, but I started doubting things because she will always wake up super late like at 12pm or so.

In 2026, I told my dad about her, and he was supportive. I also asked her to tell her parents about us, but she said it wasn’t the right time. That made me feel insecure.

Things started falling apart for me mentally. I couldn’t enjoy anything, and I was heavily dependent on her emotionally. If she replied even a bit late, I would start panicking or start fights . After arguments, I would always end up apologizing. She would forgive me, but I often felt like she didn’t really care about my emotions.

She also started controlling things like when I could play games or what I could do, which made me feel worse. Eventually, I was diagnosed with severe Major Depressive Disorder. I told her about this but she says like she doesn't care and nothing serious.

In March, I even flew to her place. I met her family, gave gifts, and spent time with them. Her brother and I were good friends so he invited me to her house(his brother doesn't know about us) after i left her house. Her mother asked her(my gf) if she is dating me she was quiet and didnt tell her and then her mother said that she should date someone local(from her place) instead. She then told me about it and said we should just be friends. I couldn’t accept that, so I said I couldn’t be friends after everything. Eventually, we broke up.

I flew back home

After that, she messaged me again after few days saying she couldn’t live without me, and said me she will marry me in the year 2033. I agreed because i have no other choice we got back together emotionally. But in April, we had another big fight because she replied late. She said she didn’t like using her phone while sitting outside of her home, while I was always trying to reply quickly even during classes.

She eventually told me she couldn’t deal with me anymore and asked me to block her. I couldn’t do it. After that, she stopped contacting me.The next day i apologized again and told her I wouldn’t pressure her anymore. She told me we could still be friends, but I told her I couldn’t be just friends she seen my message but no reply. Yesterday i received a message from her friend calling me narcissist and telling me not to disturb her(my gf) but i haven't talked with her since 30 days she wont understand.

I’m not doing well i get panic attacks sometimes and still wish she was here, but I guess im the bad guy for saying her to reply me quick. I feel like I lost myself completely in this relationship.