u/JammingScientist

I've been removing these posts and tagging them as BDD posts because I genuinely feel like if you have a bf/gf who actually loves you and cares about you, then you can't be THAT ugly. No one who is genuinely ugly is going to find someone. I know it's possible, because i do see couples around who are ugly and they are clearly in love with each other and stuff.

But it feels like a slap to the face to those of us here who have literally never ever felt a tiny sliver of love from someone else. Who don't even know what it's like to have someone's arms around you and have them want to be with you and cuddle with them and kiss them and all that. ESPECIALLY the ones where people talk about how loving their bf/gf is towards them or the people who have managed to have multiple bf/gfs. I feel like if you've had many bf/gfs you probably should be banned from here because in that case, you're definitely not ugly.

So I've been removing them, but what do you guys think? Maybe I'm just bitter/biased since I've realized I'm going to die alone and will never experience love, so I want to get other opinions

I've noticed that whenever I go places to order something, they always ignore me. It's one of the main reasons I hate going places that happen to not have a line atm because it ALWAYS HAPPENS. They just ignore me and pretend not to see me, or worse laugh at me and whisper about me and then go back to what they're doing like I'm not even there.

Yesterday I popped into a store to get some sweets real quick while I waited for an order from another store nearby to finish being made, and the people there all just ignored me. After a while, I decided it was probably better and faster to just put the order in online (like I typically do), especially since i was worried about my car since i parked in bad spot/not a real parking spot since parking is bad in that area and didnt want to risk getting a parking ticket. A few seconds later after I stepped out of line, a guy came up behind me and they took his order IMMEDIATELY. Like he didn't even wait 2 seconds before they welcomed him in and asked what he wanted.

I'm SO FUCKING TIRED of the constant disrespect. I feel like the only time this doesn't happen is when I go in through the drive through (since they have to keep the line moving obviously, but sometimes they'll still laugh at my ugliness and be rude or call me a sir when I'm a woman) or when I put my order in online and can just pick it up from the pick up area without ever having to interact with someone. It's just exhausting. It's not like they will get some disease from me just because they have to talk to me.

And other times they're even ruder and blatantly extremely disrespectful when I go to order to pay for something that it makes me want to avoid going to that store ever again or interacting with that particular person.

I wish I could be like normal people and just be able to waltz into stores and have people be respectful, be happy to talk to me, or even just take my order and leave me alone

Summer break is coming up for me in a few weeks, but as a PhD student, that doesn't really exist for me. I still have to work throughout the summer. So the majority of students (undergrads, masters, some phd) will be gone over the summer, and i will be stuck in my boring college town which is basically empty over the summer.

And since I have no friends, no bf, no nothing, every day will just be boring and pointless. My phd advisor is retiring soon, so the lab I work in is very small. I'm literally going to be his last student ever. Most of the few other students who work in the lab will be gone for internships over the summer, leaving just two other people, but one of them is graduating soon, so he probably won't be around much, and the other is barely around anyways. So I'm going to just spend my days all alone in my lab with no one to talk to.

I live with my little brother here, but he accepted an internship back home, so I won't even have anyone to come home at the end of a long day to. And even if he didn't have an internship, he'd still leave since he's attractive and has tons of friends and plans of traveling, having fun, meeting girls, etc while hes not working.

So it'll just be me all alone for like 3 months. I wish I could be normal and have people in my life but my face ruins it. The only positive thing is that at least I'll see less couples and friends and attractive people (my uni has TONS of attractive people) everywhere i go since they'll all be gone enjoying their break, but its still going to be depressing and lonely