u/James_May6734

im not really sure whats going on, i hurt myself yesterday and again today after a year or so, yesterday it was ok but today it was so unsatisfying

now im sitting here with my leg stinging wanting to go deeper

i don’t or haven’t even felt depressed recently idk what’s happening with me

i really want to get to beans and see if i feel differently even tho it’s extremely unsafe and unhealthy

could someone please just ask me whats going on or just comment smth random i feel pretty lonely ngl

after like a year of not cutting except a extremely tiny cat scratch slip up, i finally went the deepest i have tried since my first times back when i was 14, in other words im cooked gng

i don’t really feel depressed, im not really sure what’s happening with me

tw: descriptive

i did 3 cuts 2 light ones then i waited a little and went again, i don’t cut quick kinda slow actually and it was fresh blades so it was an extremely incise cut, it didn’t really bleed at all it wasn't fat layer (beans i think its called) it was just gaping a cm or 2 and was shiny and light coloured

idk what layer that is plz inform me, idk what to do now I’ll probably be doing more later tonight and i fear it will be deeper

anyway peeps please message me or something im so lonely (๑>◡<๑)

i just wanted to ask if theres any verified medical(?) laceration treatment techniques or articles or docs or pages

i try looking myself but its off topic results and support chats or hotlines

this isn’t encouraging self harm or glorifying self harm, im just seeking healthy after care

okay thankyou 💜٩( 'ω' )و