u/JamesFromIdaho

Not long ago, I lost the last few good things that I had in my life. I didn’t want the only thing that I had left to be porn, so I found a rehab center with a mental health wing 3 hours away. It was a very impulsive decision, but one that’s kept me out of trouble far longer than I ever could at home. I’ve been here for 26 days and I’m being discharged on Monday. I’m going to be returning to a very broken home and will finally have to confront the things that I ran away from a month ago. I’m so terrified on how I’m going to cope with depression and loneliness. I’m hoping that I can just focus on work and maintain the foundation that I’ve built for myself here. It’s so much easier here, though. I feel so pathetic that I had to check myself into rehab because of porn. Everybody else is here for substance use. I feel like I’m going to go home and immediately revert back to bad habits. I feel so overwhelmed. I don’t want to go back but I have to.