Hi everyone, this is my first time ever sharing my story/problems to a community so if it has any problem, please let me know!
I'm a 22 years old male living in a south east Asia country, and I used to be called a "gifted" kids and studied at gifted schools, etc. But as growing up, i feel like i'm actually the worst student in almost every class I've studied, but my parents, like every other Asian parents, expected me to be extremely good and so they wanted me to be a doctor and so I did. I'm in 4th year of university now studying doctor. But i failed multiple classes now and I've tried to keep it a secret from my parents but they've found out about it recently and things have not been great at my house. They continuously scream at me, trying to ask me to study non-stop 24/7 and it's been really stressing me out. At the same time, i've felt like i have a really short attention span and i don't memorize that good. I'm also very introverted and just thinking of having to examine patients give me a lot of anxiety. I'm having a test soon on Friday involving randomly pick a patient to examine them and write medical record for a 1v1 oral exam with a doctor.
Can anyone help me out with how to feel less anxious, and study better? Like I've tried to study/read a lot, but my memory feels so bad that i can't memorized things I've learnt by heart since last week. The test is coming soon and it is stressing me, causing so much anxiety that i've felt nausea a couple times these past weeks, even vomited 2, 3 times now. (Sorry beforehand if my English is kind of bad, i'm not that good with English, it's been a while since the last time I've written something)