Do relapses ever feel planned?
I'm going to be leaving my dream career by the end of the month because of both physical and mental health reasons. I've struggled with sh in the past but it's been nearly 3 years since I've cut or anything but I can feel myself being drawn back towards it.
For me SH was always a form of atonement for any number of real or imagined sins. My current job has body weight requirements (which I exceed) and I can't get the idea of giving myself a cut for every pound over out of my head.
I'm not looking for feedback or anything I just don't have anywhere else to take this stuff. Be safe and be well.