u/InvaderDepresso

I know, dramatic. But I want to do it. I already cut myself tonight, because I’m struggling with what I guess one could call body dysmorphia. Maybe. I’m not sure-it’s not a trans thing, it’s a sexual assault thing. The thoughts and the feeling of being touched will not go away. So I cut to distract myself but it’s so so temporary. I just want to stab my stupid leg. I won’t but I can’t stop fantasizing about it.

I hate being alive. I hate being me.