APPLE WTF?!
So like…I need to vent bout 4 or maybe 5 things 1)APPLE WHAT THE FUCK?! So my parents took my phone and well if they do that it’s game over because don’t matter what password you got or shit someone can just do some shit(idk the name of the process) and bam your password is out,you deleted photos from even recently deleted? It don’t matter people can still somehow get em like HOW?
2)so like they saw the femboy photos So back than I got caught wearing thigh highs once my mother gave me a way out saying what character I was dressing up as(I don’t remember the whole story been a long time) so I showed her astrolfo or is astolfo idk anywho so when they saw my femboy photos which I fucking deleted(thanks apple btw) my mother went on how I am a dumbass who can’t differentiate between cartoons and reality and what all did not she say so I managed to say it wasn’t the character and she asked who it was so I questioned do I tell I am trans fem or just say femboy so I went with femboy and well according to mother being a femboy is just a mental disorder that will pass as soon as I start adulthood and she went on how I didn’t have this mental disorder but since I kept on thinking about it I got it and than went on how I should bury it and burn this habit why? BECAUSE IT WILL BE BAD IN MARRIAGE like the first thing she said when I said I was a femboy she asked can you have kids? That was the first question idk I might be going crazy but talks with them has led me to believe they just want to me have the engineer tag and give em kids so they can fucking boast bout it anywho she went on saying this shit ain’t acceptable I should not tell this to my wife or we will get divorced and like what fucking not did she say now I think bout it I should have probably said I was trans fem….but than again she would have gone like “you don’t have body dysphoria SON you are just a idiot who doesn’t understand shit they see at the Internet SON nothing is wrong with you SON” 3)So like anyone know how to get back 2 gmails which google is saying you haven’t provided proof for? Now that it is Monday and I got my phone back my father logged out my Apple ID completely reset the phone and put his Apple ID now I managed to get my main Gmail but I lost the ones that I made with the name I was gonna use they didn’t have much linked but still hurts man and well 3 years of my life on honkai star rail are down the drain since I can’t play it on this phone now and don’t got any other devices so I can give up on hsr ig like man just 3 years of work gone never coming back no use in going back to that game later since the power creep is fucking crazy in that game.i am gonna try to find a way to maybe get back Hsr on this phone if I can just get my father’s Apple ID pass 4)Am I the problem? Well ya know now I am having so many thoughts since Saturday night I don’t even know where to begin my mother thinks I am mental my brother always got it against me and my father is just another story on its own I like really wish I could just cry my heart out to someone who had accept me, sometimes like the plans I have made for the future of how I will leave this fuckass country just start feeling like fucking fever dreams and it feels like I might be stuck in this country forever as a man i like also feel that what if I wasn’t a part of this family like what if I am just the problem maybe if I wasn’t in the family the other three might have no problem with theirs like I have actually started considering like femboy,trans fem aside am I really mental? Like the phone problem aside man like I genuinely don’t know how to feel about that I just put that here since I really needed to vent today morning again my mother went on the same thing it’s just study with them man like see went on “did you consider anything on how you are gonna set your studies now to distract us from what we found and stuff do you think only you got feelings” and man like…like why must you always snoop around and than when you find something I have been hiding you go ballistic like I have been hiding that stuff for a fucking reason man I know you won’t take it well but like is it my fault you all of a sudden just took my phone and than went through the entirety of it? Like I like I just want to say so much more here right now but I kinda like just going blank idk how to fucking frame it I than sometimes feel like I am just absolute idiot being way too sensitive do shit and I got no problems in my life like I genuinely have no idea how to feel Now I just like need someone who would like just be okay with who I am and love me for that not love me only because I am their child and ask me to fit the stupid societal norms of being a man cause that’s all my parents want they hate how I turned out they said it themselves and all they literally want is for me to be a engineer with two kids so they can go on about it to fuckin relatives man.anyone know what to do in a situation like this?