Anxiété sociale
I’m 27 years old, I have social anxiety. I want to connect with people but I feel like I don’t belong, even with my friends. I want to do something to stay in my friend group , I’m scared of losing them and ending up with no one. I avoid being alone but I also don’t want the attention that comes with people knowing I have a problem. I don’t know how to live a normal life with the people I care about. I see myself as not a normal person, I overthink everything. I’ve started smoking ☘️ just to quiet my mind a little and act normal in front of people , because most of the time I stay silent, I don’t know how to talk. I know I’m heading somewhere bad. All of this comes from childhood , it’s not something I chose. I went through a lot of traumas growing up. I want to forget them but I find myself reacting and thinking in ways shaped by those traumas. I can’t take it anymore. I’ve started thinking about ending all of this , but I know that’s haram so it’s not a solution , I’m just running away. I want to change. I don’t want my son to feel what I feel or go through what I go through.”