I genuinely know I need to divorce I dragged this relationship on WAY too long. I got married when I was 20 I was fucking dumb and still am very naive and stupid. I know if anyone reads this they will think the same.. I’ve been in this arranged marriage for almost 5 years. He was my very first real relationship too so I had no idea what to expect. The first strike was when we first got married, I had to live with his family. Side note if ur planning on living with ur in laws DONT!!!! Don’t do that to urself. My husband stole all of my money and I stayed. He stole my valuable jewelry THREE different times and I stayed. He gambled so much of my money too. I thought wow if he needed money he could’ve asked. My dumbass would give him if he asked. If I had 2000 and he needed all of it I would’ve gave him but not anymore. Ive been disrespected all the time with things like this from him. He hasn’t had a real job and I have a toddler by the way. I fell into the pressure of my mom and his parents telling us to have a baby. I have no idea why in the world I would listen if u ever met someone with no backbone it’s me. I love my toddler so much and my husband is a great father but not a good husband at all. Aside from him stealing from me all the time. I never get any real innocent intimacy. I want the long talks at night and the long walks at the park. Every time I ask to go on a walk he doesn’t feel like it. The only reason I haven’t left is because my mom has no room in her house for me and my son. I have no where to go and I never got to finish college. My husband is so broke and is finally getting a job after years. He’s actively searching now but he wasn’t before. His mom, sisters and brother are the fakest snakes who ever lived on planet earth. I can’t seem to leave and I feel like everything is biting me in the ass. If I get a job who will watch my baby? I’m scared of daycares and even private babysitters. I don’t trust anyone to watch my baby nor do I even know any private babysitters. My husband is so against me working because it will be embarrassing for him. My husband actually got me some of my expensive jewelry back. But he took it again and sold it.. It’s so hard for me to leave. I have a question, in a marriage or relationship..do u guys fight almost every day? Or are there mostly happy days? If u have a husband or wife who u can spend mostly happy days with do me a favor and hug them tight. Because that’s truly a rare and rich thing to have.
Update: talked to a few people on here. I’m leaving to my mom’s house in the morning! I deserve better but this decision is mainly for my toddler.