23M dating 20F for almost a year
Hello everyone, I’m M23.
I was in a LDR with a girl for almost one year. When I went to meet her, I found out she was talking to another guy and cheating on me. She said nothing physical happened between them, but I believe it did. When I caught her, she cried and said she wanted to stay with me. She blocked his number and I forgave her because it was my first relationship and it was very hard for me to leave her.
Months later, we had some arguments and stopped talking for just 2 days. During those 2 days, she started texting the same guy again. I caught her once more. She was texting him saying how much she likes him and misses him. Again she cried, apologized, and said it was a mistake. I forgave her again.
Recently she started acting strange again. She works evening shifts and finishes around 12 AM. She told me she was taking an Uber home, but when I checked her location, the car kept stopping for long periods. Even outside her apartment, she stayed in the same place for around 10 minutes. I asked her to share her screen and show me the Uber receipt, but she hung up the call.
Later she admitted she was sitting in another guy’s car and claimed he was teaching her how to drive. According to her, this had been happening for the last 4 days. I honestly don’t know how anyone would feel comfortable with their partner sitting alone in another guy’s car at 1 AM. I asked her for his name and number if nothing wrong was happening, but she refused.
I was completely shocked. I was crying, shaking, and felt emotionally broken. I know I also said many hurtful words during the argument, and I regret that. Even though she hurt me badly, I still feel guilty for reacting that way.
What should I do now? How do I move on from this situation and stop overthinking everything?