u/InternationalArt9524

I’ve tried quite a few different shakes and I dislike a lot of ingredients especially artificial sweeteners. I had been struggling with the chalky after taste. But no more.

This is my recipe. I add 30 grams of Mattisson organic vegan protein. It has only 6 ingredients. I add 5-7 grams of pure cacao powder from Puresana. Only because it has no additives. And 1 banana, usually around 100gms. It tastes awesome. Not super sweet. Feels more like I’m starting the day with a chocolate shake.

I am so happy and I really wanted to share. Because I had been struggling for the last 4 years. I hope someone else finds it useful too. FYI - we are in Europe and certain vegan shakes in US are not readily available here.

My husband is the love of my life and he passed 2 years into our marriage. He was misdiagnosed and he had stage 4 cancer.

We met in our 30s and we loved each other deeply. After his death, some people abandoned me. It was a traumatic experience.

Now, I’m 9 months into this hellish process. For the last week, I’ve been upbeat. I am doing things and I feel better for a lot of hours. I’ve terrible widows fire and I don’t really have a way to handle it. Idea of another man makes me guilty, doing anything is out of question.

I feel guilty all the time now. I wonder, did I love him? Is life so temporary? I am spiritual. And in my head, I keep thinking does any of this matter? How am I supposed to go on after this?

I just turned 40 and my husband - love of my life passed away last year.

Too much happened. Lot of people acted poorly and I all of a sudden feel all alone. I barely trust anyone. I am lonely.

And I am wondering, when is the right time to date. I don’t think I am ready, but I feel so lonely.