u/International-Owl129 — reddlx

I started watching porn/masturbating in middle school, at that point it was a once a week thing, but then Covid hit and everything blew up. Sitting in my room basically 22 hours a day led me to masturbating 3 or more times a day out of boredom. After covid it wasn’t as bad but up to today it’s still so consistent daily or every other day thing I do. I’m in college so I’m still in my room like 20 hours a day. Idk if there’s a difference between a porn addiction and a masturbation addiction but I don’t do it for the porn it’s really just to get off. I hate that a 3 second feeling dictates how I spend so much of my time. I’ve blocked the app, etc etc, but I always either undo it in the moment or find a way around. I have a gf (long distance most of the year due to college) but thankfully my addiction doesn’t impact our relationship or sex life because like I said I couldn’t care less for the porn it’s really just about getting off. So I don’t purposely watch pork when I know we’re going to be active unless I’m purposefully doing it to last longer. I just don’t know what to do, once the feeling starts I try to push it away or do something like take a walk but it’s only a matter of time until it comes back and it just slowly grows and grows until it feels like I’m not in control anymore, then 30 minutes later I’m standing in front of the mirror so disappointed in myself. I just wish I had control over my own body/mind. Any advice is helpful (don’t tell me to go out with friends or meet people I’m very very anti people.)