the guilt of leaving and then the flying monkeys
hi folks really quick questions as i’m almost very close to liberation and being freed from the shackles of n.mother.
it’s been about 12 years of foolishness which stops in a month
guilt of leaving
i have to leave and i have to get gone and i really don’t have much guilt but it’s more fear of leaving and really cutting of the bitch who birthed me for good.
there’s no coming back from this and i fear i’m making a rash decision but i’ve really had enough
i want to go no contact for real and i’m gonna ditch the sim on my phone and change my number.
i would happily go no contact with her and act like she’s dead.
even when she dies, don’t contact me, contact the funeral home.
are there any ways to navigate this feeling and adjust to going no contact permanently, and i mean for ever
flying monkeys
this segways nicely into flying monkeys. now i don’t have any siblings or anyone who’s close to me and her.
but i know her wicked and evil family are going to blow up my phone guilt-tripping me and pestering me into explaining my actions.
do you guys think i should just block them as well?
the main crux of the problem is that this is a very permanent decision.
i’m essentially moving like i have zero family (even tho i’m not close to them anyways)
and the only parent i have left i’m treating as if she’s dead (she’s essentially dead to me anyways)
how do i navigate this whole thing and the permanent-ness of it all
thanks love u guys 😛