Am I doing too much?
24F Studying for MCAT right now, i have 3.1 science gpa. I've postponed 2x already & studied for 1 year now. After months of poor methods/no discipline, it was finally going great in Jan 2026, had a strict schedule. But I ruined it again from random depression/severe regret for months and now must move my May test date to late June-August sadly. upset parents need me to apply med school this year after wasting gap years. but I plan to in 2027 (which they deem unnecessary as app doesn't need to be perfect)
I've also had many issues for a long time: debilitating perfectionism, social anxiety etc. Should've worked on them by now but instead I fantasized and planned rather than take action.
Want to improve w/ therapy but idk what to do as im kind of broke. I'm currently studying, but also work a $14/hr job. I had many plans: pay for & begin therapy, buy a car, work on driving anxiety, pay for post bacc and $50k loan debt etc, to do immediately after taking the mcat in May. But now I think I must postpone these plans.
Not sure if this is perfectionism, but idk if I can focus on many at once rn, which is why I thought I should do mcat first as i work. I volunteer occasionally too. thinking of adding another thing, like therapy, or learn to drive, or is that too much work to get into right now...? I am really willing to try though. Sorry if this is an odd post