I’m struggling to sleep, feel like I want to tear my house apart and clean it, can’t lie still and yet two days ago I couldn’t even get off the bathroom floor
I’m just confused how fast I rebound after pmdd ends. It’s insane
I got this brush today, it’s the first quality foundation brush I’ve treated myself to.
It’s from Inika (I got it on nourished life website) and I can’t recommend it enough. Especially for smaller faces. It’s so soft and I’m so glad I didn’t overspend on a trendy brush from Mecca or Sephora.
If you’re looking for a new brush this is a lovely option and is around $50.
“Mate. You run a country with 600,000 homeless people sleeping on the street tonight. A country where 40% of adults can't cover a $400 emergency without borrowing money. A country where insulin costs more than a car payment and people are rationing it to survive. A country where medical debt is the number 1 cause of bankruptcy. A country where women are dying in hospital car parks because doctors are too scared of abortion laws to treat a miscarriage.
You lock up more of your own citizens than any nation on earth. More than China. More than Russia. More than North Korea. The land of the free has 2 million people in cages, and a quarter of them haven't even been convicted of anything. They're just too poor to make bail.
Your life expectancy is going backwards. You're the only developed nation where that's happening. Your infant mortality rate is worse than Cuba's. Your kids do active shooter drills between maths and English while you sell the gunmaker's stock to your mates.
Your minimum wage hasn't moved in 15 years. You've got teachers working 2 jobs and veterans sleeping under bridges and you just spent a trillion dollars flattening a country that didn't attack you.
And you’ve got a convicted felon, adjudicating raping, paedophile protecting, porn star shagging insurrectionist running the biggest dumpster fire war campaign since the Taliban thanked you very much for losing again.
And you're calling Greenland poorly run?
Greenland has universal healthcare. Free education. One of the lowest incarceration rates in the world. Nobody goes bankrupt there because they got sick. Nobody dies in a waiting room because their insurance said no.
"NATO wasn't there when we needed them." When exactly was that, champ? September 11? Because NATO invoked Article 5 for the first and only time in history FOR YOU. Soldiers from dozens of countries deployed, fought, bled, and died in Afghanistan FOR YOU. Australia wasn't even in NATO and we still showed up. For 20 years.
And you pulled out at 2am without telling anyone and left them to deal with the mess.
So maybe before you start calling other countries poorly run, have a look at your own backyard, you spray-tanned aluminium siding salesman. The only thing poorly run in this picture is your fucking mouth.”
My therapist forgot (or avoided) me this week after I politely asked her for an appointment.
I’m in the process of building a trusting relationship with her and when she let me down, it triggered the shit out of me.
I was reminded of the worst times of my life with my parents abandoning me. I managed to get through it, I used my Dbt skills to express my feelings to her and she said I was honest and assertive etc.
Even though I’ve got through that experience, it’s really highlighted my core trauma. It’s really highlighted my attachment wounds and the power imbalance between her and me - similar to parents and me.
When I get triggered and have that flood of despair and desperation I feel so hopeless. Humans are meant to be able to bond and trust and have connection.
Yet for me - people are hazards. They are points of pain.
How do you cope with the aftermath of these kinds of events? Do you find yourself a bit shocked that things can still impact you so quickly and deeply?