a boy i’ve known for all my life is confusing me
i’m 15f, and this boy i know is also 15. our mums have been close since childhood, and i’ve known him since i was 5. recently around last year we got closer as we started talking everyday and there was subtle flirting . everytime he comes over we’re touchy (not in an explicit way) and affectionate, such as cuddles , hugs, etc. around jan this year he began getting distant and we didn’t talk as much anymore. after a while of not meeting, we met up again and he put his hands in my pants one time while i was laying against him without asking. i just laughed it off because i didn’t know what to do. we didn’t meet for a month after that and he ghosted me. yesterday we met up again at a family function and we were in a room alone, where he again grabbed the band of my sweatpants and put his hand below them. i quickly moved away with a laugh . i don’t know how to feel or what this is, ive been feeling so depressed over it for the past 2 months ever since it first happened because he genuinely used to care and talk with me, and now he just tries to get in my pants and ghosts me after. i don’t know how to feel and it’s been hurting me so much