I've bought so many. many have gotten really close to what ive been looking for most but haven't found the ONE yet! my butt is so saggy. I need a BBL. leggings/shorts, SOMETHING
or does something automatically happen?
I had marketplace with my husband. we are getting divorced. I updated household info and I now get medicaid. do I need to call marketplace to let them know I have medicaid now?
Location: Indiana
especially when you really cant avoid them? im sharing a home with my ex-husband for the foreseeable future. not ideal but it's what it is. my feelings become invalidated and im tempted to validate them. i dont need to do that. just for it not to land like I "hoped". i know i need to release my expectations of him because i only let myself down. I just need to withdraw and protect myself. how without seeming dramatic? I dont want to keep a grudge and be bitter. that makes life miserable. i just dont want it to effect me the way it does and continue to live my life!! no outside noise!!
I went to trader Joe's and used my card for the first time. I thought I grabbed all eligible items but I had to pay $20 out of pocket. im not complaining at all. im so grateful. however it would be nice to know what wasn't covered for next time!
Location: Indiana
whats the format of your prayers, haha? are you asking? are you making statements?
I feel like praying. I like to pray that my family is safe. Just to talk sometimes. I grew up Catholic and it was all I knew. on that note I didn't know anything about being Catholic but I knew it never felt right. looking back, "spirituality" was always me. I just never found it until recently. I'm not saying I don't believe in God or Jesus. but definitely not the definition of who they are in mainstream. if there is a God, i sure hope he isn't like they portray him. the Bible doesn't sit well with me either. maybe because I haven't given it the time of day to learn. i feel like its a game of telephone with accuracy of the bible. not against believing in a God i just dont "know". i feel comfort in the universe and angels though. archangels. if I believe in angels, does that mean I must believe in a God?
life came at me fast. I came to realize the closest people in my life treated me terribly. treated me in ways I would have never treated anyone else. People began to drop out of my life....for the most part. I see things very differently now. I lost who I was but found who I really am as a result ❤️
I have a friend that treated me poorly our whole relationship. she made things terribly difficult. I was always to blame how she felt. everything is my fault. we had a fallout. it came when I went against the grain for the first time ever. we have kept our distance but every few weeks she will keep tabs on me. drop in. I keep it brief and friendly. well she reached out again literally just to start problems. she really messed with me mentally even though it was over text message. the negativity was overwhelming. I decided not to even respond once she started. im sure this isn't the last I'll hear from her. I know she is going through a hard time herself. she is angry at the world. she has a very negative outlook. a victim outlook. I see she thinks small and try not to absorb it.
im just conflicted. the obvious answer seems to just block her. part of me wanted to be clear and just let her know this doesnt feel good anymore and I need space. I dont think she would have settled with that response. she wants me to chase her. she wants me to fight for her. she is very intense. I am very relaxed and I avoid conflict. I am calm. we are polar opposites. she is draining. there is no reasoning with her. she HAS to be right. she needs the final word. I know her very well. seeing her in person by chance also worries me. she is very confrontational. if I smile, I see it being met with conflict. if I just wave, she will have something to say about it. if I ignore her, it will be a whole thing. I will never do anything right in her eyes.