u/Infinite-Tune-1404

basically i was hypomanic for weeks, and it was getting real bad. but obviously i had no clue. i just thought i was super passionate about my new projects and newfound plan to go back to grad school suddenly! and thought all the insomnia was because im narcoleptic, obviously

well i started Xyrem last saturday night and let me tell you.

it was night and day. within the week i was back at baseline and looking back at the last few weeks like, "what the fuck was that?"

i'd heard that springtime can trigger hypo/mania, so i looked into it and made an emergency appointment with my psychiatrist.

lo and behold! i have bipolar 2!

how are we treating it? the med i was already on for depression and XYREM! apparently that's how crucial sleep is for stability in mood disorders. so she just wants me to keep at it and report back in next month.

thanks, xyrem. probably saved my life in more ways than one

before accepting that you should probably pursue a diagnosis? i keep blowing up my life every spring, and looking back the last decade, it's a pattern. i've suspected since i was 18 (now 27FtM) but was brushed off when i brought it up back then.

irritability, disrupted sleep (on top of my narcolepsy. which apparently increases my risk profile), feeling so confident that i probably seem full of myself, perceived slights, over analysis, way more productive than usual. every last one all last week and into this week. Now im back to baseline-ish. which includes a decent amount of anhedonia, too. my depression is better treated because i'm on 150mg of lamictal because we were treating what's currently diagnosed as treatment resistant depression and anxiety. i've failed so many antidepressants.

anyway. making a new appointment with my psych because i skipped my last one to meet with a professor about going back to grad school 🤪🤧

edit to add: my roommate pointed out this week that she thought i might have been manic, so it's definitely noticeable