u/Inevitable_Bonus_751

I have an almost 3 year old boy. Now that he’s sleeping through the night, I’m really feeling the strong urge to have a second. I want to give my son a sibling. The problem is I just really can’t see myself having a girl after having my boy. I feel like I can’t even picture it. I really can even say that I wouldn’t want to have another unless it’s a boy , which I know obviously is impossible to predict unless I do some type of IVF. I’ve always been the tom-boy ish so my son and I are like peas in a pod. Im not even sure I would know how to be a “girl mom”… am I wrong for having these feelings?

Obviously I would never want to bring an innocent child in the world that wasn’t “wanted” or preferred so I’m thinking to just not even have a second at all. Why do I feel like this? Before I had my son I was equally excited either way but now that I have my boy I just don’t see myself ever having a girl. Has anyone else felt like this?

I feel terrible even typing this knowing that so many people struggle to conceive period

After searching hours and hours on Reddit trying to see if anyone else experienced the same problem as my 2 year old, I saw a lone comment in a thread saying “probably from mold” while 3am doom scrolling after being woken up by crying “itchy mommy itchy”.

While awaiting an appointment with an allergist to see if I could find out the cause of my toddlers dermatographia, thinking back to that comment I saw (and out of pure desperation) , I decided to scrub his bathroom from top to bottom with bleach. Don’t get me wrong there wasn’t a ton of mold but there was a little in between tiles of his bathtub. I scrubbed it with a toothbrush between each tile tediously until there was zero mold. The next day after my son woke up I was preparing to give him his anti histamine and had a realization - no rash !!!!! It was gone !!

It has since been 5 days no rash since !! He was dealing with these painful/itchy rashes for months. everyday. constantly itching , crying & overall irritable. And just like that the “rash” is gone. This can’t be a coincidence? Has anyone else tried this??? Is this a known cause?

**** I also want to add that his bathroom is in his room and fairly close to his bed by the way his room is arranged.