u/Inevitable_Bid8719

Since my awakening happened - a snap open with a heart attack - Ive found no joy at all in learning from unliving mediums, I used to watch youtube videos, but they bore me a lot now, I still watch some debate style videos, it feels like conversation - but noticing the difference in my taste is odd.

Ive detested reading for a long time, though I do read, only really to refresh memories. I dont take any joy in playing single player games anymore, nor games where I cant talk to people, and even those where interactions are the point bore me because I want to talk not fight or survive... the game adds to the conversation for me, not the other way round. I have no friends into these kind of games so dont play anything much anyway.

And even in human interactions, when noticing peoples awareness/ conscsience level is below par, I become irritable, and have called a couple of people robots recently because its literally like talking to a broken computer and getting the same error code back from entirely different actions

This sub is full of accepting weirdos, I value your opinions on how to be nicer to people who are deep in the sauce, and if theres anything to be done for the odd symptom. I feel I should point out that I dont feel negative about time alone anymore, I can chill as long as I can dance and listen to music, but that makes it more strange to my mind that I cant enjoy false company, especially as its chosen with sharply focused purpose

First a disclaimer, I am not endorsing the use of drugs here. And I live in the uk, im unlikely to be able to reply as im not going to verify my age. There are many other ways to achieve this thing I refer to below, meditation and touching grass, and being childish help a lot.

Im not the first person to say these things, im just trying to condense it for my own amusement.

A trip is a dreamy state where a person cannot fully trust thier senses, like they dont know the rules of the 'game' - if one sees life as a game

This seems like a fitting allegory for life itself. We get given a start (hopefully by choice as it is very uncomfortable otherwise), but the tutorial varies in quality and substance, and sometimes it is very 'uppy' and sometimes you get a bad deal, or just take a bit too much bang for your buck and panic or hold on to something for dear life.

Im not sure if that experience helps us evolve over the long term, but it helps us grow as individuals, and leads to 'spiritual awakening', or individuation, there are other terms for the same experience, and secularised coodinated paths to follow in order to achieve it quickly in life. Freemasons 33 is the one Im most interested in right now, but hinduism, buddhism and gnosis are all good paths for different people. honestly, I think drugs tend to make one stumble over the wisdom and not be able to carry it fully out of the experience, the 'come down' often involves repacking Jung's shadow, or in other words the awakening is closed down from hiding from ones 'dark side' - that part in each of us which society does not accept.

I have views on how best to integrate this shadow, but I feel unable to talk on a recorded platform on that subject

Im pretty sure once it is achieved, one has to 'drop' levels of awakening in order to survive, and the tendency is to fall back into old habits, though if the person can open up their mind then they can control their habits, instead of habits controlling the person. Googling the levels of spriritual awakening will show what I mean in more detail, there are different interpetations though, and I try not to take sides on things I dont understand well enough

I think this is a key difference in the education systems between normal schooling and the posh schooling systems, it is a factor in memory, understanding ones true interests and desires, and I think it directly affects learning ability, but thats a much less informed guess.

The knowledge of this phenomenon is used to keep the masses at bay, in many ways. The common man is held back from 'awakening' because of the education system, not a lack of intellect, or a lack of money, simply by bieng taught selective subjects which avoid understanding the world and ones own mind in too much detail. Subjects like philosophy, logic, debating, social sciences, religious studies focusing on the stem of religions instead of individuals - tribalising them is what they do in poor people schools, mostly by simply allowing normal human development, guided in a way which looks and feels like a wisely chosen system. Im not christian, but there really is something to the accepting all peoples - to him it was lepers who were despised most if I remember correctly

The 'symptoms' of being low on the awakening spectrum are bigotry, hatred, tribalising attitudes (think of the argument 'intolerant of intolerance' see rowan atknisons free speech for a delightfully well put perspective), and maybe criminal behaviours, but that is isnt the same as correlation of criminal convictions, more that I think It leads to different types of behaviours, less risky ones where there is high reward for awakened persons, and more thrill seeking from less awakend types, with population variance.

I think it might also correlate strongly with family bonds, but only if everyone in the family is fairly well awakened, or at least has been at some point. The tendency of one awakened person in a family unit could be emotional dominance, for better or worse

One can become fully awakened, take a lot of wisdom from it and then drop back down, I think this can result in mental disturbances, such as schizotyapl stuff, psychosis, maybe autism and adhd, but those seem like more innate things to me, maybe it affects them profoundly, Im saying that as I have some undiagnosed neurodiversity so I feel like I get an opinion worth mentioning here. Wisdom without accompanying knowledge, especially in children, can fester and become strange beliefs, self neglect or abuse tendencies, and other common 'dysfunctions' of mind/ behaviour.

I think the awakening process hits women faster and in a profoundly different way to the male experience, as women have a greater need to trust each others judgement from a safety perspective. There are always excetions of course, but as a generalisation I think women become moderately awakened when they start asking each other about dating opportunities, and men start the journey through hobbies, but there is more variance in my anecdotal evidence of men than I know of from women.

The difference leads to young women seeming to have a domineering emotional intelligence from many young mens perspectives, so the women seek people who match that intelligence in some way, confident young guys, older men because older men have had more time to mature (not saying that 'mature' is always good for the men themselves or the young women in this hypothetical), both sexes are 'hurt' by this experience, differing perspectives (and the uk law) make it hard to capture the experiences I predict here, but on a societal level this leads to ignorance of the awakening phenomenon among men more often than in women from what ive seen

I think this mismatch leads to more of the sexes blaming each other for what are sometimes simple biological differences, and sometimes for societal problems which no individual has control over. That blame both holds people back from awakening, an reduces the level of it more the angrier the issue makes the individual.

I know Ive gone off on abit of a tangent from the original point to explain my views, but although I dont recommend it, trips are the easiest way to get an awakening, but they can be bad for people who are not ready to face their problems head on.

Due to mentioning the Masons, and a slew of words which Im sure will have an officer check up at a minimum, Id like to say Im not a fan of sudoku. Im very happy in life and I dont nor have I ever wished harm or more than mild offense to anyone. Im open to DMs, I wouldnt be surprised at all if I cant reply or check comments on this, or if I get banned for bad ideas. Im not mentally sick enough to need help right now either, im more grounded than I seem

Im a nihilist, god was a mirror. I dont know for sure because if it copied me, how would I know the difference? But if I nod he nods, if I panic, he panics, when I looked for hell I found it, and heaven was there too. But i am still a nihilist, now god is the universe, not an entity. When I die, it will become an entity but until then I am just one of its brain cells