Wanting to top more
So I've been a bottom most of my sexual life and I love it. What an incredible feeling it is to have my lover(s) devour, worship, and explore my ... well you get the picture.
I have topped a handful of times, but only twice to completion while engaging with my first love. I do have a deep appreciation for a man's posterior. I enjoy eating it, spanking it, exploring with my fingers, and recently topped a very plump booty. No release though.
Here's the problem and the hope:
I'm very inexperienced topping and that leads to insecurity. Obviously practice makes perfect, but in the context of the hookup culture where everyone is chasing their next dopamine high, it's not easy to ask for patience while I figure out how to pleasure him while also trying to experience pleasure myself.
I want to get more experience and eventually be that vers guy (who still prefers bottoming) that I know I am.
I'm likely overthinking it.
Any insight on this, oh great reddit gays?