Me F(19) and my boyfriend M( 20) have been in a relationship since one year, love each other very much. And today is his birthday. And it's his first birthday since we started dating. I wanted to do something grand for him, but of course me being a student, no job or whatsoever I can't really afford it you know. Still I tried my best and prepared some things for him, after saving up for months. I got him this cute gift hamper, that included a tshirt, a jacket he liked, perfume, his favourite chocolates, a HANDMADE bouquet of flowers you know the one you make with ribbons, yea that. And a handmade polymer key chain. I really really thought he'd appreciate it and be happy.
After I handed him the gifts excitedly, he didn't look or seem too happy about it, just a simple smile and an awkward thanks. I asked what's wrong don't you like it, and he replied "no no I do like it, just that it's my first birthday since we started dating i expected something like a huge surprise lol" so obviously I felt a bit embarrassed and sad I guess and he immediately apologized and said "sorry don't feel bad I was just joking it's okay I love this" and by my face he could obviously guess I was upset, but still we went with our day, that comment still lingering in my mind.
We had lunch (also my treat) and we were chilling at this one park. Then during one of our conversations, he casually showed me a picture that this girl sent him, that she got her boyfriend a customized tshirt of some sort. And for context, that girl used to have a massive crush on him awhile before we started dating, tho ne he never liked her back.
Plus slipped in this very judgey type comment "see what she got her bf? Damn you should've done something like that". Like bro. That comment REALLY got to me I felt really upset I was almost at the verge of crying. But luckily enough at that moment i received a call from my mom calling me asking me when I'll be home. I used that as an excuse and came back. I reached home about an hour ago, and I can't stop crying and thinking about all that.
it hurts even more because this is literally the first time I've ever done something like this for a guy. he doesn't even have any idea how hard it was for me to save so much and prepare such a gift, plan the whole thing, today's date, lunch etc etc, i honestly put so much into this.