u/Impossible_Train793

Sup all. 31M I’m a video game burn out. Married for 10 years in a loveless relationship. two boys 3-6 that are literally the only reason I’m hanging around for at this point in time. About a year ago I took a turn for the worse porn addiction, alcohol, light drugs was catching up to me and I hated my life. I got a weird message on my phone somebody looking for someone else and I just played along and it turned into a funny thing. The woman I was texting is 37 from Texas I video chatted her a bunch she was legit. I felt great I got enrolled back in school I started back in the gym regularly and have continued even though I stopped talking to that woman out of respect for my wife (things was getting a little spicy). Now I’m sinking again. I feel like I’m stuck in my role. I want an adventure. I want some romance. I want a love story. A change of scenery, something. I often feel like I married my wife because she was all I had at that time and maybe we got married too young for me to fully comprehend the commitment I was getting into. I don’t know what I need. I thought the gym and getting my shit together would make the pieces fall together like they need to but they haven’t yet and I’m worried they won’t. Anybody else feel this way? Advice?